THOUGHTS OF DEATH

                    Chapters two and three

                                “I read your articles. they are written by a man who has 

                                   come to the end of his life, to the end of his hopes.” 

These two chapters contain several flashbacks and memories of Wiesel. They are all related to her grandmother, and he has these memories in the hospital (present) and in past memories: when he met Kathleen. Wiesel explain how his grandmother always understood him even when he was wrong. She, as him, isn't scared of death and finds a way to see God even in the evil.  In the hospital, Ellie feels abnormal levels of pain: "i had so much pain that I couldn't even feel the injection. Hours went by rapidly, he states not feeling 6 shots of penicillin, though out this time, he remembers his grandmother: "there was no water where she was, there was no air. She was only drinking death" (page 28). He explains how she is the only one who would've understand him and the pain he was in: "I was thirsty. I felt hot, My throat was dry. My veins were about to burst. and yet the cold hadn't left me. My body, shaken by convulsions ... of a dying man" (page 27). In this situation, Wiesel relates to death, thinks about it, and shows that he feels the death through his body in the cold, because the cold is "the burning fever" and this fever is "hell". The first three chapters have shown a sad, depressed lonely young man rather than a happy and thankful one. Not close to God or even his own spirituality or emotions, constantly contemplating the idea of death itself. he repeatedly states it, his opinion towards it and towards life. 

"I looked down and thought that someday I too would die" 

"I was still thinking about death and didn't want her [Kathleen] to talk to me"

"It is only in silence, leaning over a river in winter, 

that one can really think about death"

(page 24)